Feeling Blue

I don’t think any woman who has had a baby doesn’t go through some sort of down period. Whether it be the big D (depression) or just the blues, we all get them. And they are valid big or small. Today was one of those days. I had no motivation to do anything. My back aches terribly. I am not sleeping as much as I’d like, and the saddest part is it isn’t because of Dax! After his second feeding for the night I somehow am UNABLE to fall back asleep, and when I do its been TWO hours! Which means he wakes up within 45mins to an hour for his morning feeding. I get so angry with myself. Half the time I kid myself thinking perusing instagram and facebook will make me tired. In fact it turns into a black hole of finding new bloggers, or stores, or “hey is that on sale” to waking up in the morning to emails of late night eBay bids and Nordstrom purchases. I am excited for my skirt, and baby carrier. See! I’m always distracted. What was I talking about? Oh Ya! Baby blues!

I am tired of the baby weight that I still have on. I want to fit into my jeans I love so badly. I think that I have lost weight then get on the scale only to realize I have gained 2lbs. Then I say “Screw it” and go drink a Coke Zero and eat some salted caramel chocolate covered macadamia nuts. It’s a dark road. Once you go down the chocolate road its almost impossible to come back. Like the 3 chocolate cupcakes I ate within 21 hours for my birthday. But then I feel good for about 3 seconds and then go try on my jeans again and realize that chocolate doesnt burn carbs.

Damn Chocolate.

So, Tees and Maxis are where its at!

Photos by: Shelby Preston IMG_9642 (1)

Tee: c/o Triple Thread Maxi Skirt: Splendid Shoes: Steve Madden  Purse: Aldo (similar on SALE!)

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2 Comments

  • Lindsay

    August 5, 2015 at 4:27 pm

    I’m right there with you Alia! Especially on the jeans thing! It’s like all I want to do is wear jeans is that too much to ask?? 🙁 I know our bodies changed for a great reason but getting dressed is such a bummer right now. You’re not alone!

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  • Lysandra

    August 5, 2015 at 5:03 pm

    I think you look great and baby weight can take a year to get off. Don’t worry about it. I do think some walks will help you feel less blue. Take the baby and walk around and not at the mall for some fresh air and endorphins. You can still have chocolates and soda but you’ll get an extra boost of serotonin and sleep better too. Even those quick 10 minute post natal workouts can help you feel happier. Love you, don’t be sad!

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